Anxiety

I never used to be an overly anxious person. People used to describe me as laid-back...in fact they still do. That's because I am excellent at pretending everything is fine....Just fine.....When underneath I am screaming or forzen with warranted or unwarranted anxiety.

I once told my psychiatrist that I try really hard to be 'normal' and he laughed and laughed. But isn't that the point of psychiatry? To make you 'normal' again...

I don't have a reason for been anxious lately, all I can think of is that maybe it's a side effect of stopping my medication. I'm particulary anxious in the morning, even more so before work starts. I work myself up into a state and then have to calm myself down, usually by talking to myself so then I just look crazy. Can't win can you?

I don't want to come across as being so negative. I want to be the kind of person who sees the glass as half full instead of half empty, but hey lifetime habits are hard to change.

I'm currently doing the whole Weight Watchers thing...so far I've lost 6.4kg and I have about 7kg to go before I get to goal weight. Trouble is I have insulin resistance (plus I was on the meds) so losing weight is like pulling teeth...painful and oh so slow. Today was a bad day followed by a bad night...Chinese.

Did I mention I seriously lack willpower??