Reading back I realise how negative I am, even though I try sooo hard to be a positive person. I wonder if it's the depression talking or if it's actually me. If I'm just like that....which if it is just me then that's just depressing....making me more depressed...and more negative...See the vicious cycle???
The whole purpose of this blog is to have somewhere safe and anonymous to vent. To scream. To kick. To babble incoherently when it's warranted.
But am I just breeding negativity within myself?
Am I feeding the depression its own life?
So I am going to do something my old psychologist (cause I don't need one of them anymore :-)used to get me to do....
Concentrate on one positive a day...and if that's too hard...a week...
But I'll aim high and aim for one a day.
So...are you curious (shite, now I'm talking to myself...)?
My positive for the day....I got to sleep in till 9am today.....
There. I.did.it.
As for my horrific gain at WW yesterday I have already started undoing the damage. I have tracked everything so far today and made healthy choices. I did the shopping today and not one chocolate made its way into my trolley! Not even a teeny tiny Freddo Frog....
I am hoping to lose the 1.1kg I gained in the last 2 weeks this week. But I know, for me, that's near impossible...but I will try. My leader asks everyone to write down a focus for the week and my focus was to simply track each day and take one day at a time. So far So good ;-)
Re; the Meds. I see my psychiatrist on Friday and I know he is going to ask about my meds and I will have to tell him I've stopped them. I know he will be unimpressed, but I have damm good reasons and I know. I know the conspiracy behind the drugging of an unfortunate minority of people. I refuse to be sucked in once more.....
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